"Doubt is not a pleasant condition, but certainty is absurd."
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The teachings informed me that life is uncertain, impermanent and at most times unsatisfactory and that there is suffering in the material world. This seems a dire prophesy to teach an impressionable teenager, but as I witnessed examples of this around me, it was palpable.
It taught me that I cannot be sure of anything in life, leaving me
feeling somewhat vulnerable. I could conclude on something, yet I had to have the humility to realize that the decision I made could be wrong.
It also allowed me to be flexible and open –
with “strong convictions yet loosely held” as things are always changing.
Being comfortable in my vulnerability in uncertainty saved me a lot of grief in life as I had some mindfulness tools to deal with the vagaries of being a parent, an entrepreneur - to face defeat, losing people and things, disappointments and to live through two insurgencies, a war, a tsunami, floods, hurricanes - to survive without being too scarred.
It has also helped me navigate the global pandemic from 2020 without going into a place of fear and judgement by accepting my fallibility and mortality. That liberated me to think critically about what was going on, what was being promoted as solutions and to make my own decisions.
It helped in dealing with the judgments others made of me for my opinions and questions by understanding them with compassion - for their positions and decisions.
Buddhist Influence among many others
Even though I am a student of many philosophies and religions, I was most influenced by Buddhist teachings.
He said where there is suffering - with a commitment to follow a middle path and a mindfulness practice - I can put life in perspective to live a joyful life of balance with inner-harmony and equanimity.
Antidote to VUCA
The modern techno-industrial world has trained us through a left-brained bias to plan, be efficient, effective, strategize, compete - be cunning even - to win at any cost to sustain the consumerist machine through a narrative of certainty.
The lights will come on at the flip of a switch, there will always be justice, economies will keep growing and this material abundance of external gratification will lead us to pleasure and happiness.
However, when I become mindful and aware, I realize these ‘things’ are superficial and impermanent and can change for a myriad of reasons beyond my control.
To accept that these are beyond my control is not easy as the conditioned anchors of 'certainty' are hard wired into us from a young age.
Transcending the Super-Ego and the Left Brain
Harvard Neuroscientist Jill Bolte-Taylor, in her book Whole Brain
Living invites us to embark on a Hero’s Journey (Joseph Campbell’s monomyth) - to leave behind the left-brained anchors - the rational, ego-based consciousness that processes
the reality of the world - the hero has to step into the unconscious realm of
the right-brain.(1)
(Please refer to my previous blog - https://lalithanandagunaratne.blogspot.com/2021/12/grace-and-equanimity-in-uncertain-world.html)
That is a huge leap of faith to leave behind the familiar left-brained worldly knowledge, to let go of the external material anchors for many of us in the modern age driven by the individual SuperEgo.
As Freud said, the SuperEgo is a censor, the judge that keeps me on a
short leash based on my conditioning, to be accepted – first by my parents
then extended to society. I am constantly critical of myself, even mean and
tyrannical – so fear and guilt are dominant emotions, as I keep on the treadmill of modern life to keep up with society's expectations.
Transcending the SuperEgo, akin to the left-brain requires a commitment to the inner-work through a mindfulness meditation and reflective practice, to get a hold of the mind, to become mature in our emotional intelligence to inquire into the nature life.
When I can manage my mind - I can accept nature's reality to manage the inner narrative and how I see and respond to the VUCA world around me.
Einstein said, “We must be willing to let go of what we are to become what we will be”.
That requires me to trust that there are alternate narratives to what we have been conditioned to in the consumerist world.
That trust will keep me from running back to the left-brain every time I get afraid of something - holding steadfast to the right-side to let go trying to fix things - to trust in the universe, relax, let life go by to smell the roses, enjoy a sunset, cherish the company of a friend or just to sit and contemplate the miracle of life.
Don't just take my word for it - inquire for yourself and see where it takes you.
Uncertainty and the Noble Truths
As I learned Buddha’s 4 Noble Truths at a young age and drummed into me over the years, I was compelled to let go of the common narrative of "my solutions are outside me" and take responsibility and inquire further to develop my own practice.
In the 4 Noble Truths, Buddha described the nature of suffering; its inevitability; the causes; and a path out of suffering in the Noble Eightfold Pathway, also known as the Middle Path.
Buddha, who had his own Hero's Journey by realizing the unconditioned reality, taught that clinging to the conditioned reality was the route to disappointment and suffering.
He made it easy for us to follow his suggestions by organizing them in an orderly way. The Middle Path’s eight suggestions were sorted into three categories:
1. Behavioral - which provides an ethical foundation with right speech, action and livelihood.
2. Wisdom and Insight arise through a conceptual foundation of right view, understanding and thoughts.
3. Mental discipline required to stop the thoughts, become aware to gain insights and wisdom about the mind, body and life is gained through the meditative category - right effort, for concentration through a mindfulness practice.
Mental Discipline and Mindfulness Meditation
He suggested the mindfulness practice – meditation with a focus on the breath - to investigate and control my normally erratic, judgmental mind with a mental discipline - I can gain right understanding first by putting things in perspective.
The meditation practice is subtle and hard to describe. That is why it has to be a personal practice, so learn and try it yourself.
My own practice helps me to move my mind away from the ego-based self-obsessed ‘me’ - the left brain - to regulate my conditioned thought process, seeking anchors of certainty, to become comfortable in the state of uncertainty and vulnerability - as that is the nature of life.
With that understanding arises the right views and right thoughts leading to right speech and action. As for me - I am a work in progress - the journey and the inquiry itself is interesting and rewarding, as I work towards equanimity - contentment and peace of mind.
Personal Responsibility
As I mentioned earlier, Buddha did not ask us to embrace all this without thinking critically and taking personal responsibility.
His teachings are suggestions assuming we are intelligent and mature enough to test for ourselves.
Every human - from our nature and nurture, are at a different metaphysical, physiological and emotion plane. Each of us will learn and play with this practice to find our own path to enlightenment - essentially letting go of our attachments, obsession with self and the ego to end suffering.
Critical Thinking
"Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. Do not believe anything because it is spoken by many. Do not believe in anything because it is written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders.
...But by observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and the benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it”
These teachings prompts me to quiet my mind through meditation, think critically and to take responsibility for myself to live a life of inquiry in an uncertain world.
They provided a foundation to set the stage for a life that has seen
everything imaginable from being a self-employed entrepreneur, a parent to the
extremes of war and a Tsunami in Sri Lanka to a move to start life again at age 53 with the family to Canada in 2011, which has been a financial and emotional roller coaster ride.
VUCA, the Global Pandemic and Critical Thinking
The COVID pandemic was an unprecedented opportunity for humanity to put a mirror on ourselves to think critically and realize our fragile existence.
When I apply the VUCA realities to the pandemic, I felt a dissonance with the politicians, bureaucrats and the mainstream media taking a linear, reductionist, even a militant approach towards a singularly focused enforcement of a permanent solution with mandates and a medical intervention for "Zero-Covid" to a virus that no one seems to know the origin of.
If it is a natural virus it would anyway mutate before fading away. That is what natural organisms do in nature, they rise and fall – but never truly go away.
I accepted the initial fear-based global response to lock-down to protect the vulnerable as there were so many unknowns. I also empathized with the officials who were trying to deal with a dire situation - and perhaps in their own minds, doubt and fear may have set in with so many lives at stake.
However, as awareness and understanding increased with time, I was mystified by the politicization and overreaction with continued shutdowns, mandates and silencing of a wider inquiry and a narrative required in a complex and nuanced situation as this.
I was surprised by the institutional abhorrence to critical thinking and questioning, even dissent based on science and real-time data – to
shutout debate and censor discourse - to take a one-size fits all approach, when all hands were required on deck.
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My cognitive dissonance is a result of being mindful with my subconscious mind confused with subtle awareness of the gaps in the information (ie: was the virus natural or lab made), statistical data, narratives counter to the common knowledge that every intervention has both positive and adverse effects - and especially censorship of experts and leading academics in places like Stanford, Harvard and Oxford.
If they were silenced - these leading institutions who educated many who contributed significantly to every sphere of the modern techno-industrial complex, have lost their credibility.
Having experienced how censorship hurt societies over a lifetime, I view that as oppression.
My critical thinking questions are;
- who decides what should be censored?
- what are their vested interests?
That is why I wonder whether it was panic driven politicians, technocrats and decision makers had been taken over by their SuperEgo – perhaps stuck in state of self-critical fear to find a perfect solution at any cost or was it driven by vested interests and profit?.
It seemed that most politicians - whether it was Macron of France, Trump and Biden of US, Arden of New Zealand, Morrison of Australia and some state premiers, Merkel and then Scholz of Germany, Schallenberg of Austria, Bennet of Israel, Trudeau of Canada and the 'global experts' along with the media, who were driving the narrative were not open to a whole-brained holistic approach to consider the entire ecosystem of causes and effects - the positive and adverse impacts of interventions and mandates, as any discourse counter to the 'certainty' narrative were censored.
These politicians leave a legacy of this confusion, divided families, communities and nations, where people lost their livelihoods and businesses - demonizing those who decided to exercise their free will for whatever reason not to take the medical intervention.
Trudeau took it to another level counting on the support of the majority who 'agreed' by calling a snap election in the middle of the pandemic, which did not go well as he expected.
All this will be a part of a sad chapter in the history of the democratic world.
Losing Credibility and Erosion of Confidence
Is it a wonder that people's confidence in important institutions like public health, mainstream media and government and politics in general have eroded?
This is way more troublesome than the technocrats driving the narrative calling and censoring dissenting views, novel ideas and questioning - 'dangerous'.
In fact, so many of us were driven to alternate media to be entertained from the ridiculous to the more reasonable conspiracy theories confusing the situation even more, as when there are gaps in information in the mainstream, most human minds will find ways to fill them.
When in Doubt Have a Conversation
When in doubt there must be conversation. It is alleged that conversations were shut down - when leading US public health policy and decision maker Francis Collins, Director of National Institute of Health wrote to Dr. Anthony Fauci about the authors of the Great Barrington Declaration;
"This proposal from the three fringe epidemiologists . . . seems to be getting a lot of attention – and even a co-signature from Nobel Prize winner Mike Leavitt at Stanford. There needs to be a quick and devastating published take down of its premises,” Dr. Collins wrote. “Is it underway?” (2)
This can be compared to William Sullivan - FBI's head of internal intelligence telling J. Edgar Hoover in 1963 that Martin Luther King, after what Sullivan calls a "...powerful and demagogic speech I have a Dream makes him the most dangerous Negro of the future in this nation....". (3)
That had dire consequences for Martin Luther King, many African Americans and the United States of America.
Reasonable Conversations, Critical Thinking and Honoring People to do the Right Thing
It is through reasonable conversations, entertaining a myriad of views on the entire system can we gather information in a holistic way in a VUCA situation.
Critical thinking processes can be then applied to assess the pros and cons of the rules and mandates made based on research, facts, who is promoting and profiting by them by putting things onto context and perspective.
Ideally this process will not be politicized and unfold in this manner;
- The experts first come together with scientific consensus (which is an ongoing dynamic process based on research and feedback).
- Then policy makers and regulators advice the politicians who have a pulse on the people and ground realities.
- Make informed decisions, set public health regulations and enforce them without politicking, fear mongering and separating people in irresponsible ways.
The above is a dynamic circular process with feedback loops.
Governments will involve the people; keeping us informed that in a VUCA situation with a moving target, there are no easy answers and perfect solutions, so goal posts may change along the way.
That way people can be accorded the dignity to take personal responsibility with informed consent to take necessary action - to protect the most vulnerable and keep each other safe in true partnership with the governments.
Do not take my word for it
The pandemic focused a light on the health care industry, the same way climate change brings the oil and agri industry into the limelight. The arms industry protects this status quo.
I am not saying do not believe governments or the media as we have to have anchors and foundations of systems in place for a society to feel safe and thrive.
All I am saying is to mindfully listen to your intuition too, to stop and think critically before taking action.
Media and propaganda can create a mass psychosis which can hurt humanity to add the the suffering of life (4). We have history of mass hysteria with religious crusades, witch hunts, fascism etc.. driven through propaganda and we need not have added a pandemic to it.
Many governments who are supposed to represent the people are now representing the vested interests of their funders and campaign financiers - the corporate world who promote a CERTAINTY narrative. That makes 'we the people' vulnerable (5).
Therefore, let us learn to stop our thoughts mindfully to listen to our intuition and when there is a dissonance; think critically, do the research and find out for our selves to take responsibility for our decisions.
In the case of the pandemic, history will judge this “Terminal Case of Certainty” as Covid has been a lesson of humility for humanity to realize the VUCA nature of life.
At this stage, as the judgements and divisions continue, I can only make a wish for our humanity based on Metta and Karuna - loving kindness and compassion;
May humanity transcend the “Terminal Case of Certainty” to live wisely in an impermanent, nuanced world with love, compassion and joy.
May humanity find inner peace through a mindfulness practice to thrive and flourish in an imperfect world.
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